"So for me, the smile is "I'm glad I could heal your eyes, I would have done anything to heal you, and I have zero regrets" -- just amped up to be more reassuring (lol). And the "fortunately I'm used to getting injured" is "I'm strong, I can handle it, I'll get through this." (Which is just practical, right? He's like someone who's just donated a kidney to save a relative... except he did it possibly unintentionally and by stealth.)"
ITA, and to me it's all factually right, but emotionally not right, lol. Like, 'that's the right thing to do in this situation' vs. 'it's not fair to be in this situation to begin with' (which happens to these characters a lot and I've talked about it before re: the Lantern, lol). And I feel like feeling that it's unfair can coexist with the fact that the situation exists and something has to be done about it, and doing something else about it would be even worse.
"And oh, maybe part of the reason ZYL is so upset is that deep down he is accepting it. He doesn't ask, "Is there a way to undo it? Come on, we're reversing the damage and blinding me again." (Cf the reverse healing in Dr Feng's clinic.) He accepts Shen Wei's gift-sacrifice, and that's the part that hurts him the most?"
Oh wow, that's a fantastic point! *even more OUCH (for me, lol)*
ETA: "ZYL wants his eyes to have been healed at no cost to anyone, but that was never going to happen (has he MET the Hallows?), and I personally would much rather see Shen Wei suffering here than Da Qing or Xiao Guo or even some random innocent someone who couldn't handle it."
Isn't the suffering a result of the difference between the energies though? What would have happened if a Haixingren shared their energy? Like, would ZYL's eyes still get healed at all (since he was originally harmed by dark energy, does he need it to reverse it)? And if so, would the healer be harmed at all, and how? (I still do think the Dial takes a part of your lifespan in exchange, but also it may only be when you're actually bringing someone back from the dead.)
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ITA, and to me it's all factually right, but emotionally not right, lol. Like, 'that's the right thing to do in this situation' vs. 'it's not fair to be in this situation to begin with' (which happens to these characters a lot and I've talked about it before re: the Lantern, lol). And I feel like feeling that it's unfair can coexist with the fact that the situation exists and something has to be done about it, and doing something else about it would be even worse.
"And oh, maybe part of the reason ZYL is so upset is that deep down he is accepting it. He doesn't ask, "Is there a way to undo it? Come on, we're reversing the damage and blinding me again." (Cf the reverse healing in Dr Feng's clinic.) He accepts Shen Wei's gift-sacrifice, and that's the part that hurts him the most?"
Oh wow, that's a fantastic point! *even more OUCH (for me, lol)*
ETA: "ZYL wants his eyes to have been healed at no cost to anyone, but that was never going to happen (has he MET the Hallows?), and I personally would much rather see Shen Wei suffering here than Da Qing or Xiao Guo or even some random innocent someone who couldn't handle it."
Isn't the suffering a result of the difference between the energies though? What would have happened if a Haixingren shared their energy? Like, would ZYL's eyes still get healed at all (since he was originally harmed by dark energy, does he need it to reverse it)? And if so, would the healer be harmed at all, and how? (I still do think the Dial takes a part of your lifespan in exchange, but also it may only be when you're actually bringing someone back from the dead.)