omg i am BEYOND flattered that you like my playlist!!! thank you so much! my playlist is weilan-focused so every song on it is about that ship: the things they do, or dream, or sacrifice, or negotiate (with themselves and the world) while trying to do the right thing but also have this love if possible. BUT my take doesn't matter, because it sounds like you have a fascinating take on running up that hill for ye zun; and you should follow that inspiration! (i love kate bush so much omg. she is angry and lustful and sharp and completely brilliant; her music was formative for my late teenage self, so i try to find room for her on every playlist, lol!)

also, i'm not a vidder but if you feel like talking thru yo! my saint, i'd be more than happy to. maybe my headcanon about that song, as a duet/dual perspective focused on shen wei, could help? of course, it's entirely up to you and your process ♥