Your screencap of the moment after Shen Wei has released Zhao Yunlan so forcefully that he rocks backward, is perfect because it shows my favorite tiny detail from that moment: Shen Wei's hand lowers to touch/brace Zhao Yunlan's thigh, which would protect Zhao Yunlan from going too far backward, losing his balance, even potentially falling off the table.
It's a perfect tiny and even unconscious thing, that Shen Wei simply can't stop himself from protecting Zhao Yunlan--that even though he himself has just almost shoved him backward (with all the frustration, seeing how Zhao Yunlan is so careless of his own health and safety), he won't let anything happen to him.
Sigh!
I adore the fraught character stuff going on in this scene. Shen Wei is in high PROTECC mode, whereas Zhao Yunlan, like he does, is in high self-sacrifice (or at least complete lack of caring about what might happen to him, because of the importance to him of protecting others) mode. And I'm always privately yelling at Shen Wei, like, "Oh does it bother you that he's being so self-sacrificing that he suffers for it? JUST LIKE YOU??"
They do say that sometimes what bothers us most in others is something that exists in ourself! But I feel like neither of them can fully see it--BOTH of them can get into that "Yooooou're not allowed to suffer/self-sacrifice, you must be protected, only Iiiii am allowed to suffer/self-sacrifice". The way Shen Wei's love/protectiveness/fear for ZYL is expressed with so much frustration here, is the way ZYL's same feelings for SW are expressed with so much frustration in the kitchen scene! The way ZYL is all laughing/puppy eyes in this scene to brush past what he sees as unimportant harm done to him, is the way SW is all sweetly-smiling "fortunately I'm used to it" in the kitchen scene!
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Your screencap of the moment after Shen Wei has released Zhao Yunlan so forcefully that he rocks backward, is perfect because it shows my favorite tiny detail from that moment: Shen Wei's hand lowers to touch/brace Zhao Yunlan's thigh, which would protect Zhao Yunlan from going too far backward, losing his balance, even potentially falling off the table.
It's a perfect tiny and even unconscious thing, that Shen Wei simply can't stop himself from protecting Zhao Yunlan--that even though he himself has just almost shoved him backward (with all the frustration, seeing how Zhao Yunlan is so careless of his own health and safety), he won't let anything happen to him.
Sigh!
I adore the fraught character stuff going on in this scene. Shen Wei is in high PROTECC mode, whereas Zhao Yunlan, like he does, is in high self-sacrifice (or at least complete lack of caring about what might happen to him, because of the importance to him of protecting others) mode. And I'm always privately yelling at Shen Wei, like, "Oh does it bother you that he's being so self-sacrificing that he suffers for it? JUST LIKE YOU??"
They do say that sometimes what bothers us most in others is something that exists in ourself! But I feel like neither of them can fully see it--BOTH of them can get into that "Yooooou're not allowed to suffer/self-sacrifice, you must be protected, only Iiiii am allowed to suffer/self-sacrifice". The way Shen Wei's love/protectiveness/fear for ZYL is expressed with so much frustration here, is the way ZYL's same feelings for SW are expressed with so much frustration in the kitchen scene! The way ZYL is all laughing/puppy eyes in this scene to brush past what he sees as unimportant harm done to him, is the way SW is all sweetly-smiling "fortunately I'm used to it" in the kitchen scene!
I want to lovingly bonk their heads together. :D