*it's so foundational even "well, I was a god back then" doesn't make him question that certainty. He can envision no version of himself, no matter how out there, for whom that wouldn't be true. ♥ ♥ ♥ *
Oh, great point. I love that!
I think it's true insofar as he cares deeply about not showing evidence of his monstrous nature in front of ZYL, in a way he doesn't about other people. He's still hiding it, it still matters to him, but he doesn't care about other people's judgment or good opinion the way he does ZYL's, so the stakes aren't the same, and he's a lot more tightly wound around ZYL as a consequence.
Yes, this! (So in fact, in some ways the SID (minus ZYL) is where he can be most himself? Because they're all weirdos already so he doesn't have to pretend to be normal? Maybe that's why GCC finds him so reassuring. :D)
ETA: I just glossed over the waitress stuff, too. I have no idea what's going on there.
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*it's so foundational even "well, I was a god back then" doesn't make him question that certainty. He can envision no version of himself, no matter how out there, for whom that wouldn't be true. ♥ ♥ ♥ *
Oh, great point. I love that!
I think it's true insofar as he cares deeply about not showing evidence of his monstrous nature in front of ZYL, in a way he doesn't about other people. He's still hiding it, it still matters to him, but he doesn't care about other people's judgment or good opinion the way he does ZYL's, so the stakes aren't the same, and he's a lot more tightly wound around ZYL as a consequence.
Yes, this! (So in fact, in some ways the SID (minus ZYL) is where he can be most himself? Because they're all weirdos already so he doesn't have to pretend to be normal? Maybe that's why GCC finds him so reassuring. :D)
ETA: I just glossed over the waitress stuff, too. I have no idea what's going on there.