More belated realizations: So when Zhao Yunlan says "I wish I’d killed you back then." it's also directly because of this line, isn't it? Because they both established that it IS better to be dead than to live like this. And the choice that he's actually struggling with and questioning is not 'give SW these terrible responsibilities or not', it's 'give him a life not of his own choosing or kill him'? D: D: